I am going on vacation you can say or simply .I am leaving the fandom .I am giving up being an artist. Honestly stress is to the point i give up so i am seeking help. I am some one who has depression but for the sake of my mate have forgone comitting my self . So much pain from just body being sick,mind being sick,the normal tending to my family helping them live better lives. I do not feel sad for i helped better so many i feel i can finaly relax in peace. So all account i have even to do with art i am deactivating .Skype facebook all gone. I am tired of taking time from others just to help some fix there lifes. True it dose them good but it also hurts that one.my guardian is sadly one of said furs. A love i never took the time to grow and florish. Every one has a mate and there not killing them selfs anymore so i am at peace with this.Im going to be selfish and tend to my self for once. I let work consume me. Most of my friends are probly laughing at me saying working but. Gosh so much from running forums to game staff. To testing programs,to late night studying. A shoulder to cry on to fashion consultant.
One thing i hated about my self was the farses i always put up always acting to pervy . Or to strict hell only people who seen me for the real me. I mean the real me are zach ,snow flake ,shimi , and bryan but even still there sides of me they never seen. Gawd i have evolved and changed so much over time. I do not know who i am any more in the scene is my mind is not writ . Infection and meds side effect have taken its tole. I know i will get trolled for this but i rather have my last say before i can niot grasp relaity any more. Even my friends here . I look at names and pics and wonder who are you? With help of my family i was able to fight a long time . But all things have an end. So ether in a padded room or just laying in my bed.
Traped in my own Insanity i am just letting go.
So with these last words of clarity before i slip into madness i say this. Be good : )